In the silence, I rediscover ..
who I AM
Having always believed that holidays or a few days away renewed the soul allowing my imagination to awaken I was surprised when I returned from my recent break feeling unsettled and restless. I returned to Secondlife feeling disconnected and a little lost. Thoughts grew into questions and I began to wonder what my purpose in SecondLife was these days. I suddenly felt very old in SL terms. Had I really done everything I wished to do?
Knowing that the only way to process and understand these feelings was to go within and listen to my inner voice. Instead of keeping busy dancing or distracting myself with shopping I imposed some quiet time. This weeks lesson touches on that very need of giving ourselves silent time to reconnect with ourselves. The full lesson can be found here on Alexa Maravilla’s blog.
I realized that the chaos in my inventory of free gifts from two fairs, a couple of hunts and the SL10B birthday had started to overwhelm me. So tucked away on my build platform I delved deep into my inventory in a renewed effort to open, sort, organise and discard.
The music let my mind wander with some enlightening results. The most important being that I realized its time for a new challenge, a new dream to pursue and conquer. What it will be I do not know yet, but I’ve mentally opened the door for opportunity to come my way.
Your Self-Love Assignment
This week, carve out an hour a day to bask in complete silence.
Then, look for a day over the next month to schedule four or five hours to be in silence. Turn off the phone, the computer, and the television, and dedicate your time to reconnecting with yourself. Take a bath, get a massage, or do some yoga or light stretching. If you like, write in a journal to express your thoughts and feelings as they arise. Allow yourself to listen to the quiet impulses that are there beneath the chattering voices in your mind.
I know for me there is no way I could ever be in complete silence for four or five hours. Any silent time for me includes music playing in the background. Even as a teenager, I would hibernate within my bedroom, earphones always upon my head as I disappeared into a world of music and lyrics.
Aside from the obvious demands of being a mother, where silence is something you wish for along with winning first prize in the lottery and having a magic fairy who cleans the house. In total silence my mind would whirl and think until it would send me crazy. Let’s remember after all solitary confinement is a method of torture!
So, how do you reconnect with your inner self? Do you enjoy total silence? Or like me, need some noise in the background?