The past month or two has been pretty hard in my first life with multiple issues and people demanding my immediate attention. Sometimes it can be hard when you are the strong person within a family structure. The person whom everyone looks to for support and guidance even though you are being hit with exactly the same pain or doubts which they are.
It is not within me to turn my back upon anyone who needs me, especially my kin and extended family, who have given me the honour of being that rock. But it is with honesty that I say there has not been much for me to smile about lately. Every night when I do finally manage to sleep there is always that overhang of heaviness from the day just lived and a sad realization that the next day will be more of the same. I like my blog to be a place of positivity and constructive thoughts, so my posts may be a little sporadic for now as I seek to find that within myself, especially with the holiday season nearly upon us.
Recently I asked my sister Alexa Maravilla, to create a Japanese garden getaway as a surprise for Mr. P’s upcoming birthday. Whilst Mr. P. hasn’t been able to enjoy the garden with me yet, it has become a special place that I disappear to. In times of pain and confusion it is easy to loose touch with who we are. So I have become so grateful to have a place that allows me within such beauty to chase the demons away and try to clear my head every night. For me it has become a place for relaxation, slowly soothing my battered soul and mending my hurting heart, so that I can be there each day for the people who are currently looking to me for help.
Once we find some time for Mr. P. to enjoy his surprise, I will showcase some more pictures of this beautiful place Alexa created. Thanks sis for being there and not saying no when I needed that little bit of extra kindness myself.
Much love everyone, PB xx